A Place called Home

A home.

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Away from disneyland and beauty parlors

This place has so much memories of me.
From childhood, to teenage.
A place where I and siblings used to run after snakes, frogs,dogs, ducks and even rats.
A place where free range animals roamed around and play..


Can you imagine this paradise looks like?
This is the place where my hopes and dreams began.
A place where my family resides.

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plant and you will reap

A place of more laughter than tears.
A place of chirping birds, a stunning blue sky and invigorating breeze coming from the mountains and ricefields.

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beauty in wilderness

A place where you can hear crickets and see fireflies at night.
A place where you can see stars shining bright.
A place where you neither need an aircondition nor eletric fan

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This is an AirConed Balcony- Air Continues Balcony

You don’t even need an umbrella when the rains pours..
Just a piece of Banana leaf will do..

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When you don’t have resources, you become resourceful

A place for the farmer.
Perfect place for the dreamer.

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A Place for the farmer, perfect place for the dreamer

I took this picture 3 years ago before I left that place and landed in this desert land.
Whoaaa! Why Am I having this “daydream” in the middle of this sleepy afternoon?
I admit, I think I just miss this place so much…my heart, my home…The #Philippines.

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A Wound

Why do people live, but one day dies,
Why do woman loves,but one day cries
Why when everything seems perfect,
All of a sudden a catastrophe arrives

They say that when you love, you’re mentally ill
Sometimes, when you’re in a cloud 9,
You gamble principles and risk your dreams
But what the hell is wrong with love?

It makes you crazy.
It makes you smile.
It makes you inspired
Or makes you cry.

Life is what we make it
Either to give up or survive
In this world of changes,
There can be no turning back

After all, we are just mortals
With emotions and limitations
One day, we’ll all gonna die
What matters, is the good deeds we left behind.

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#Sympathy

This morning, I got the chance to donate my clothes that were still really good quality I think i only wear those when I was in my 57 kilos,”wink”. It’s a heavenly feeling when you do or give something to someone you don’t even know personally. Actually, this is my third time to do this. The first time was two weeks ago. While I was having my regular jogging, I’ve seen this bin for clothes donation located in about front of Al Arrabi Sports Stadium

I thought why don’t just donate my old clothes that I no longer use instead of letting them pile up in my cabinet or just throwing them in the garbage. This is also a chance for me to reach out to those who are in need of clothing. I may not be that wealthy to donate cash, because to be honest, I am just one also of those trying to make ends meet, but I think with this simple way, someone else can be happy.

There are millions of people around the world that wish they could get the clothes that we throw in the garbage.

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The Power of Giving

A very familiar saying that goes..the more you give, the more you shall receive.!

While taking a shower today, worrying and counting the days how to survive before salary comes,  a typical employee like me who tried to make ends meet, a sudden memory popped out in my mind…the power of giving.

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Once, I met a friend who has no work, no place to stay, and a total stranger for me and in this country. Upon looking at him, I knew what he needed. The very basic need. The food.

I packed a sandwich and gave it to him. I wished that there will be more generous people who could help him more than I did as I watched him go.
The following day, our road crossed again and by that time it was me who has nothing to offer but a QR5.00 that was a USD1.37!Gosh!
What can we buy with this amount?
We both laughed and without a second thought, we went to a nearby restaurant and  tried to buy at least a piece of bread and water. We’ve waited for a couple of minutes and the crew handed us a plastic of food! It was more than what we’ve ordered! I told the crew he might got it wronged.

He just smiled and handed us the whole roasted chicken, a soup and salad! To our surprised, he was the supervisor in charge of the store! Wow! Hamdullah! Thanks to the generosity of this man. May he be blessed more! I really don’t know were to grasp the words “thank you”  to expressed how really  thankful we are from the bottom of our hearts.

While we were enjoying the free food, my friend confessed that he gave the half of the sandwich I gave him the other day to the street sweeper he saw.
Oh my God! I stopped from eating and a goosebumps reigned my whole body. God really never sleeps. He really works in mysterious ways.

So as today, I should worry nothing. Instead, believe in the power of faith and prayer because miracles do happen!

Believe!

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Au revoir

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It was like watching a romantic movie last night but this time the actress was no other than me!
Whew! Our eyes met and with a heavy heart, I tried to control my emotions..
Emotions of joy,faith,love and lost.
I wanna show how strong I am while seeing you entering the departure area.
Having a friend, a sports buddy, a brother, and a lover for quite sometime is like an awesome dream that I’d wished I had never woken up.
We may be apart for now and it may be hard for a while
But life must go on.
Our journey must continue.

au revoir pour le moment mon amour
mais a biento’t! j’taime beaucoup!

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How Tired is too tired

How tired is too tired?

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Today is the last day for the month of April.
I didn’t even remember how the month of April started whew!
That’s how preoccupied my mind and schedules were.

I would love to put something inspiring message here today.
But couldn’t even grasp the write words to say…just I’m tired.

I may be tired now but one thing is for sure.
That there will always be tomorrow..
That there is always something new coming..
That there is always space for resting..
That as long as the world continuously revolving around me..
There’s always a reason to stand up and keep going..
No matter what, no matter where..

Keep safe!

Mhuagzz..!

 

 

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Dear Son

How have you been? It’s been three years since I left you. I know you are a big boy now but for me, you are still my baby who used to look for me everytime I was out of your sight. My tongue was muted and my heart was pinched when I phoned you one time and asked me “who are you?”. Your uncle even told me that you are now curious how I look liked?  I am sure, your memories of me when you were just five years old were very limited and uncleared. You are now 8 years old. Can we blame it to the absence of  internet access  in your place? I can neither see how tall nor how handsome  you are now. Anyway, despite of technology barrier, we are still so blessed that Mama and Papa Ulang (grandparents) are there for you on my behalf. I want you to believe and obey them as I and your uncles did when were just kid like you. I heard you will be bagging academic awards again for this school year! I am so proud of you! You may not understand me at this moment but I believe and hope that you can in the future.  The words “I love you” may not suffice the times I am away from you but I want you to know that I am always here for you.

I want to give you some advice that I hope will be very useful  in your life’s journey. I am not demanding you to follow this or that because I know, you will discover it one day on your own.

1. Bring out the best in you.
When you were just in my womb, I prayed to God to take care of you, to make you His good follower. Be it whatever His plans for you. I heard you were excelling academically. I am so proud of you son! I am happy that you are making every single moment of your life worthwhile. Start to dream big! Don’t allow yourself be trapped in a four cornered wall full of what if’s and but’s. Your mama was once drowned by timidity that deprived her to do some things she dreamed off. You know very well the life that we have in the province, lack of financial support and contented with the life of at least eating three times a day. Now, don’t worry anymore because I am is here. I will support you to the best I can whenever you needed me, financially and morally. Be the best version of yourself.

2. Don’t be a prisoner of your fear
I have been a prisoner of many fears in life. Fear of heights, fear to be ignored, fear of embarrassment and the fear to fail. It took decades of realizations and bitter-sweet experiences before I overcome it. Did you know that you have the blood of both being uragon (me) and waray (your Papa) (from suburb race with valor and brave blooded personality). Each of us has our own fears but be bold enough to face it because believe me fear is only in the mind.

3. It’s ok to rest when tired.
We deal everyday with so much stresses, challenges and trials. It is ok to just sometimes sit down whole day and think nothing but relax when your body and soul needed it. I know, there will be storms along the road that will make you think like giving up. When your father and I broke up, I thought it was the end of the world. I didn’t want to even move my feet forward. I refused hearing updates about him. I resented too much. When you feel despair, let it out.

4. Don’t care what people say
There will always be nosy people around wherever you go. Don’t be intimidated by their nosiness. Be very careful because this may lure you to be one of them. They may either boost your fighting spirit or drag your morale down. They may hurt your ego many times but you have to challenge yourself. In the end, you will thank them for making you more stronger. What you think of yourself is much more important than what other think of you.

5. Be ready which road to travel
Enjoy first your childhood. Play under the rain, swim in the river, go climb trees, stamp your feet on the mud, go biking and explore your hobbies. There is no promise that life is easy. Hence,nobody will take the journey for you. Life is an adventure. You never know where it will lead you. How we make our life is a choice. We are free to choose. But nobody is free from the consequences of whatever choice we made. So when you do cutting classes, be ready for it’s consequences 🙂

8. Be grateful
Appreciate even the smallest thing that happens to you. When Mama,Papa Ulang give you household chores like washing of dishes, feeding our pet dogs, going to store, looking for firewoods, and even pulling their itchy white hairs from their heads, be grateful because they are just teaching and training you about responsibility, hard work and confidence. When teacher gives you task or homework to do, be thankful because she is molding your logical thinking and time management skills. Have a heart of gratitude because it attracts more blessings and goodness.

9. Love and trust yourself
I don’t mean not to love and trust others. In this world, life is being moved by connections, networks, friends, relatives and family. There will be times when you will be broke but don’t ever hold grudges in your heart.

10. Watch your attitude
I heard you had a fight with your playmate that ended to spanking.
Life has so much dramas, provocations,frustrations, successes. The question is how will you handle it? If you know it was your fault, be humble enough to admit and say sorry. Assess yourself, forgive yourself, stay calm and fight your own rage. There’s no other enemy who can defeat us but our very own self. Please don’t be a cause of any trouble. When Mama and Papa Ulang scolded you for some reasons, assess your self, say sorry and try not to do the same mistake again.

11. Save
I heard that you are saving your little amount of money so you can buy computer or iPhone for games. That’s very good. Although, I can easily buy you those stuffs if you wish to. But I want you to realize the value of a hard-earned money. Discipline yourself in spending. Not everything in this world are given free. You have to sweat and work hard first before you can harvest.

12. Have faith
Never loose your faith in God. For He is the only one who will never leave you when you feel neglected, discouraged, desserted and abandoned. It is very important to make your connection with Him strong and intact because it will always He who will stay with you when everybody in this world disappear.

 

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